Yesterday was a better day... I realized that my reaction to things not going my way can be quite immature and destructive at times... Bad patterns that I'm trying to change so that this new relationship has a chance to grow. He came over last night, and we had dinner and watched a movie in my room. It's so cozy and comfortable when he's here with me. In the middle of the movie things got hot and heavy... so nice. I love the way I respond to his kiss, to his touch, to the way his mouth feels on me... I love hearing his little moans, and feeling his body tense up and then release. He is so beautiful. And I can't wait until next week when I can spoil him for his birthday...